Saturday, March 3, 2018


I feel really nervous right now. In the next 12+ hours or so, an event that my friend and I have worked really hard to plan for about 1 1/2 months is getting close.

My comfort zone is usually being a team player when it comes to an event, so this is out of my comfort zone: to organize a large-scale service event.

I don't really care if everything goes perfectly or not, but what I care the most is that I hope everyone enjoys their time and learn something from this! Aaaaaa this is so exciting to see that my hard work (along with my friend's hard work) finally comes true... :') 

1SE: February 2018

Honestly, last month was kind of difficult to me emotionally. I felt so drained than ever. I don't know if that's because of the weather or the fact that I graduate soon that adds my anxiety level or whatever else, but it was hard. Thus you can see in the video there was a lot of yoga or active stretch class involved and 'chill' day overall.

Saturday, February 10, 2018


The one and the only thing that I want after my graduation is, honestly, an invisibility. I really can't wait to the day where I let go of social media. I don't know why I despise social media so much, but I think I just feel exhausted to see notifications, people's updates, and group's updates.

The reason why I don't publicize my blog so much — even though I like the thought of my content is published on the internet, permanently — is because I don't want attention and people to feel the need and desire to check my life's update. Comparision is a happiness' stealer; I don't want people to compare their life to mine.

However, it gets harder when it's not natural for me to speak my mind out loud in the midst of extroverted people. So, existing in the online world is a way for me to speak up, and the reason why I'm not completely off the grid (yet).

I'm almost being invisible though just by deactivating Instagram. And I want to state, even though I might not have those aesthetic pictures uploaded on my feed, I feel truly happy. I don't need to build up my online persona, and it feels so good. I feel more empowered when I get rid of the social burden that I have to prove that I'm happy, or as we say it  "pics or it didn't happen" to oblige us taking pictures every single time. I finally have an exposure to "live in the moment", and I plan to continue to live this way—which is why I'm hoping to let go of social media in the future.

Privacy is a really wonderful thing.